Archive for the ‘Dreams’ Category

Score!!!!
February 18, 2013

Today I feel like I have made it to another level in as basketball player due to the fact, I got selected to play and managed to score my first ever points with a shot near the free throw line. This gave me an amazing feeling my basketball family saw and I think I shocked a few people with the amount of effort I have been putting in at the moment. I want to be a better player, the only way I am going to do this is to push myself. When I’m tired from running, I’ll run more. When a opening comes up in a play, I’m taking that shot. I have to step up to be counted for. I managed to get another 2 pointer from near the three point line.

By the end of the game I had played 10 minutes  of basketball, made 4 points, 5 assists and 3 rebounds. I am proud.

Going back to my mums for a few days now and going to hook up with my mates and maybe shoot up the courts back home. They are going to be amazed by my improvements. In the way I play and in the weight I have lost due to pushing myself more.

My mother has bought me a new car too which is the whole reason for going down. Going to take the train down to Ma’s house, which will be fun (NOT).

I might weight myself at her’s seeing as I refuse to buy scales for our home.

Remember there is only one rule SMILE!!!

13,14 now 15
February 11, 2013

Well I’ve been very busy working on my basketball skills, I think my shots are improving. My coach even took me aside to work 1 on 1 with me he only does that normally with the starters. I made some really good plays in training, feels good like all the work I’ve put in is worth it. I got the basketball teams photograph yesterday, gonna take it home to show Ma next week.

I’ve been writing more and more on the novel seems to be going on, I think I am gonna ask my mum to read it soon. I just need a person to tell me what they think.

With my reading I have completed book 13 which was very good also 14 was by the same writer they was called Unbroken by Carolynn Amara was a very touching novel makes you aware about the struggles the people that fight for everybody’s freedom go through out there and when they return home which lasts them a lifetime. The second book leads on from the last book and its called Unspoken I really enjoyed going on a journey with the people in the book. Read it for yourself though don’t just take my word for it.

Remember there is only one rule SMILE!!!

Sport Junkie
February 9, 2013

Today was a productive day I am currently half way through book number 13. I shall name this book if it continues to take my feelings on a journey. I have started my work for university with planning. I’m hoping my mentor at university will help me with the structure of the essays I have written. Weaknesses of mine is writing as my thoughts can never make it to the page fast enough. When writing my novel it’s different. I feel and control the words I write in the novel, with an essay though I control some aspects of it not all. In the two essays I am writing about a subject I do care about. Gender in sport and how promotion of health and exercise should be a whole school approach. I support ideas to improve both.

Talking about my teams I am looking forward to watch the Knicks tonight, Melo is on fire at the minute and the bench is strong. All I can say is bring it on Clippers. Leeds United left me felling all over the place after a draw, I hope Leeds can try and make a push for promotion (Doubtful though). I am still flying high about the Baltimore Ravens though, just wondering what will happen now with the team having to change.

I feel like a bit of a sports junkie all I seem to do is talk about sport it is a big part of my life and my goals but it’s not everything to me. I do look forward to playing sports, watching sports and reading about sport. My partner does think sport is my second love after my xbox haha.

But really I love my family first and everything else is second that’s just the way I think and love.

Remember there is only one rule SMILE!!!

My family are my survival kit
February 8, 2013

After thinking more about my life and the journey I am on and have been on.

I am thankful on having such a loving mother who has taught me things in life no one could ever buy.

In my real Dad’s case in my life, with all the things he does wrong, or things he never showed up for I am grateful. As I am stronger than he could ever be.

My big sister’s commitment to succeed after countless obstacles, made me fight more for what I deserved.

My big brother’s guidance to sport without that all them many nights shooting hoops which helped with my thoughts would of never happened.

My Second mum who is there and taught me there doesn’t have to be a blood bond to be family. The importance in family is Love.

My Dad a man that took on a role in my life without question, showing love, an ear when needed and showed me how it felt to have two parents that supported me throughout everything.

For love that I could never ask for I have my partner who walks with me down this journey.

With all of these people with me I know I can complete any goal in my journey.

My family are my survival kit.

 

 

Gender in sport
February 7, 2013

I am going to mention the 12th book I have read this year. It’s called Offside by Julianna Stone. This book made helped me with a few things that are going on in my head with one of my essays for university. Gender in sport is a big thing within sport throughout the world. It’s true that it has become easier for women to progress in sport more than before. There is still a long way to go to be equal with men. The media doesn’t help promote the same it does male sports. Look in the newspapers in the back of the sport pages today. I bet there will be a maximum number of two articles about females in sport. Most of the time when we see females in sport being promoted they are used for objects of desire instead of their achievements of the sport they play. If you look at the difference between the sports and the amounts of money for men over women then say it’s OK your wrong. I want the next generation of children to grow up with the same equal chances in sport.

In education we tell our pupils treat everyone the same. As a world we don’t do this. I would bet the time is takes everyone to understand this I will no longer be alive in body. If we want true equal rights in life then as a world we will have to change. If you want the right to wear your religions clothes. The right to tattoo your own arm in a tribute to those that have past. The right to play against the best sportswomen in the world. The right to marry who you want. The right to seat where you want. The right to equal pay. The right to vote in things that effect you.

I want to have the right to change my world for the better for all the world.

One book at a time. One day at a time. One dream at a time. One right at a time.

Gender in sport. It’s not right.

There is only one rule SMILE.

We are all equal
February 5, 2013

Well that is book number 11 done and number 12 started. Book number 11 had a lot of things I like, Basketball, Love and Music. But one piece that it was overloaded on was religion. I have nothing against religion but it felt like the writer was preaching to the reader which I didn’t like. I want my novel to not preach about things but make you think about your own life and what you want from it.

I want so many things from my life, mainly love.

I big thing happened in the united kingdom, Gay marriage is now legal. I think as a world we have taken a very long time to understand love is love. I believe we are all equal in this life and that’s how it should of always been. The fact some people don’t agree that’s fine, but keep it to yourself. If you bring others down for love then you bring hate in the world instead.

Remember there is only one rule smile

Wave Seekers
February 2, 2013

I’m not at work this weekend which is good as me and my partner are going to go spend some time together at the beach. Yeah the weather is cold right now but there is nothing like the ocean to make you happy. The noise of the waves crashing onto the shore and you can see what type of person you are by the waves. How each wave could maybe meet your toes but sometimes just a little short, you move too close and get drenched or you don’t move and wait for the sea to come to you. Me and my partner are both wave seekers we go in and look for that wave and if we get drenched so what that’s life. I used to hold back in life but I’ve come to realize life is way too short, you have to try and reach your goals not hold back and get nothing.

The coast was nice we had an amazing time. I read a little more now in book number 11, I have decided to try and keep most of my books under a certain price. I have told my mother about the reading goal I have set myself, she is really impressed. This because last year I read a total of three books. The year before that a grand total of zero. I don’t want to loose my mind like my loving Grandma did by reading and doing more to keep my mind active hopefully I won’t go down that road.

Holiday ideas are still going on, we might go to LasVegas near Christmas time. We have a week in Wales planned with a couple of friends which is hardly my sort of holiday, I would rather go somewhere nice and hot so I can stay in the water longer.

There is only one rule SMILE.

Thinking of me, Who I be.
January 29, 2013

Today I spent most of it, Listening to Macklemore & Ryan Lewis their songs speak to me with the words and music. Their songs have made me think about what makes me to this world. This is all I can think of – My loving family making myself caring and have the streak of cheeky comedy. My Music selection, random genres from pop, old school, hip hop, r & b, punk, rock, cheesy love songs, dance music, acoustic. I love many different songs this is thanks to my mother’s taste in music and my sister’s too. My sporting backbone given to me by my brother. Growing up with no father figure with a Mother working three jobs to raise her three children, my brother took me under his wing teaching me sports. During School days I played sport many different kinds which have me a natural high. My writing which came from writing lyrics originally  to then poems and then short stories. Reading other’s thoughts and feeling, the facts of things spoke to my soul and mind. Love from all of these things make me complete, Love from my family blood and adopted, Love for sport playing and supporting, love for the art in the world that effects the senses.

I have wrote some more of my novel, read over three chapters in my 11th book of the year with is about a couple one a NBA star and the other a Dancer, I shall let you know if it ends up to be a good book. I feel I can achieve my goal of 120 books in a year if I keep going at the pace I am at now.  I’m going to write something on here which I wrote today just a random thought maybe it can be classed as a poem.

Strong

I broke through in time

to save the hope within my soul, I can make the difference

All I need is strength

 

to carry on this life with a smile

is harder than crying on the way down

remain tall nothing to do with height

Have pride in your choices, even if their wrong

there is no shame in knowing

your mistakes

As long as you learn from them

 

So smile, Stand tall, make mistakes

as we learn to stay Strong.

 

Thank you for reading.

There is only one rule SMILE.

Work can kiss my (INSERT WORD HERE)
January 27, 2013

I’ve been busy with working two jobs not had much time to write on here due to keeping the little time I have to write and read to complete my goals this year. One of my jobs is at the weekend only and the people who run it don’t know how to run a tap! I’ve over 28 hours in two days and I am tired. Wish my other job paid more then I wouldn’t have to do my weekend job. The job I like is working with children that don’t have that much in the world. I enjoy that job more than any other job i have had so far.

The novel I have been writing is coming together nicely I have decided how to twist the story to keep the readers interested. I have now told a few more people about me trying to write a novel, they all want to read it and are supporting me through it. This means so much for me, I’ve always had a dream about having a home by the sea and sitting there writing with the ocean in the background. Surprisingly I’m not doing anything at university towards this dream. I am aiming to get a degree which will give me the opportunity to have more spare time to write.

I had a check up with my dietitian with great results, I got on the scales scared as hell of the outcome. To my delight I have lost nearly 1 stone since seeing her last. She gave me praise and my partner did too, I just have to keep it up and not give up. I wish I was like my partner and could eat anything and not put weight on. I eat really good, exercise a lot and still stay bigger than normal. My doctor says the fact I have PCOS doesn’t help with my weight problem.

I go back to university tomorrow and have basketball practice, I am really looking forward to it. I like getting on that court, marking up and taking the game to the other team. I will get that starting position one day. I hope my parents will come watch me one day too, during my early days playing soccer she would never come and watch me play. I want her to see how far i have come with my physical side of life. I don’t get to see my mum that much seeing as she live over 180 miles away from me now. I would like to see it in her face the fact she is proud of me.

Well I best make use of this time I have free and do some writing.

There is only one rule SMILE!

Ma’s house.
January 20, 2013

I am back in my home town with my partner for their birthday meals with both sides of the family. It is strange the feeling I get when coming over this side of the country, everywhere I look I have past memories with stories, people and randomness. The road love lane and how I had my first crush with someone down their ironic name. How I have played sports in all the parks in my home town. Long walks and rides I have as a teenager clearing my head and trying to understand my feelings at the time.

All the dreams I had on those walks creep into my head, the dreams I made for myself  many now cannot come true but as I was writing last night I wrote something that sums up how I feel about them.

Dreams can either fade or evolve but never die.

One the goal side of everything, I managed to go out for dinner last night and not eat the normal but less which impressed myself. Being back at home and with the weather conditions my fitness could be better. I have done some stepping to make sure I actually did something for my fitness.

I also managed to finish off another book in the early hours of the morning. This book made me think about how life throws us people that come into our lives and some try to change our lives to suit themselves. This often holds us back and hurts us. It made me think about all the lives that have came into my life and tried to make my life less important. My mother raised me well though because I am strong enough to know my feelings and thoughts and grow with them.

The novel I am writing is taking a back seat in my days back in my home town due to all the family and friends we have to visit while down. But when I get back home I shall make sure I shall write another two chapters. I get home tomorrow which will lead me to write the chapters then plus I have my basketball training tomorrow night.

Right I’m off to chill and enjoy my ma’s house now, Remember there is only one rule SMILE!