Blocked, Blind and Feeling
December 10, 2014

James Blunt – When I find love again.

Playing in my ears. Mistakes I’ve made plenty of these. I could right now make them again so easy. I told myself last year I would not just jump into bed with the first person who wants me. Last time I hurt others because of this and hurt myself in the process, not this time. I choose to make a better plan for me. I may never find true love that is the scariest thing I’ve ever admitted to myself and the world. But at least I dream with an unblocked heart, eyes wide open with the full feeling of pain and hope.

I will not be blocked and blind to the feelings anymore.

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Sit, Wishing and Hoping
December 7, 2014

Unlucky for me, I’ve been dumped and all my dreams came crashing down.

Dreams of marriage and children BOOM gone.

On top of that I am off work ill and basically homeless. Top life with my heart crawling around in pieces.

But with all this pain and the daily thought of you and the fact I can’t make you happy anymore.

With the eagles in the sky circling me for their next girl.

I am trying not to get tempted by the shinning new pennies.

I believe in the love I dream and that one day I will find that person to love me from the inside and out.

Wishing I don’t fall for the tricks of my old fake self, or getting with someone just for the fact they want me.

Hoping I stay strong and through the tears of loss, I find my true love.

The love that holds us together through the stars of time.

But until then, I will walk not sit, get not wish and Believe not hope.