Singing, eyes and text
December 15, 2014

I may have lasted over a month without you, surely my heart should be moving on right now. Delete the pictures, numbers, poems I wrote for you. I just can’t do all that yet. In the hopeless romantic heart of mine, I believe I love you throughout this break up and still that you are my love story. I’ve been with people before, moved in with them, shown them my deepest being. I have done it all before apart from with you I gave myself whole to you. For once I dreamt with someone instead of being selfish.

I guess my heart is still learning and while I am singing frozen songs with my friends getting drunk, maybe it’s time to let it go. I can’t rush this feeling and though I know I’m not getting any younger and some of my dreams may vanish. I refuse to stop believing in love. My eyes will meet yours one day and sparks will blind us. Til then I will ready my heart, repair the scars and wounds. Build up a home for myself to one day singing and happy hum while my love is texting me, telling me how much they miss my eyes.

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Blocked, Blind and Feeling
December 10, 2014

James Blunt – When I find love again.

Playing in my ears. Mistakes I’ve made plenty of these. I could right now make them again so easy. I told myself last year I would not just jump into bed with the first person who wants me. Last time I hurt others because of this and hurt myself in the process, not this time. I choose to make a better plan for me. I may never find true love that is the scariest thing I’ve ever admitted to myself and the world. But at least I dream with an unblocked heart, eyes wide open with the full feeling of pain and hope.

I will not be blocked and blind to the feelings anymore.

Sit, Wishing and Hoping
December 7, 2014

Unlucky for me, I’ve been dumped and all my dreams came crashing down.

Dreams of marriage and children BOOM gone.

On top of that I am off work ill and basically homeless. Top life with my heart crawling around in pieces.

But with all this pain and the daily thought of you and the fact I can’t make you happy anymore.

With the eagles in the sky circling me for their next girl.

I am trying not to get tempted by the shinning new pennies.

I believe in the love I dream and that one day I will find that person to love me from the inside and out.

Wishing I don’t fall for the tricks of my old fake self, or getting with someone just for the fact they want me.

Hoping I stay strong and through the tears of loss, I find my true love.

The love that holds us together through the stars of time.

But until then, I will walk not sit, get not wish and Believe not hope.

Sport Junkie
February 9, 2013

Today was a productive day I am currently half way through book number 13. I shall name this book if it continues to take my feelings on a journey. I have started my work for university with planning. I’m hoping my mentor at university will help me with the structure of the essays I have written. Weaknesses of mine is writing as my thoughts can never make it to the page fast enough. When writing my novel it’s different. I feel and control the words I write in the novel, with an essay though I control some aspects of it not all. In the two essays I am writing about a subject I do care about. Gender in sport and how promotion of health and exercise should be a whole school approach. I support ideas to improve both.

Talking about my teams I am looking forward to watch the Knicks tonight, Melo is on fire at the minute and the bench is strong. All I can say is bring it on Clippers. Leeds United left me felling all over the place after a draw, I hope Leeds can try and make a push for promotion (Doubtful though). I am still flying high about the Baltimore Ravens though, just wondering what will happen now with the team having to change.

I feel like a bit of a sports junkie all I seem to do is talk about sport it is a big part of my life and my goals but it’s not everything to me. I do look forward to playing sports, watching sports and reading about sport. My partner does think sport is my second love after my xbox haha.

But really I love my family first and everything else is second that’s just the way I think and love.

Remember there is only one rule SMILE!!!

We are all equal
February 5, 2013

Well that is book number 11 done and number 12 started. Book number 11 had a lot of things I like, Basketball, Love and Music. But one piece that it was overloaded on was religion. I have nothing against religion but it felt like the writer was preaching to the reader which I didn’t like. I want my novel to not preach about things but make you think about your own life and what you want from it.

I want so many things from my life, mainly love.

I big thing happened in the united kingdom, Gay marriage is now legal. I think as a world we have taken a very long time to understand love is love. I believe we are all equal in this life and that’s how it should of always been. The fact some people don’t agree that’s fine, but keep it to yourself. If you bring others down for love then you bring hate in the world instead.

Remember there is only one rule smile