Sit, Wishing and Hoping
December 7, 2014

Unlucky for me, I’ve been dumped and all my dreams came crashing down.

Dreams of marriage and children BOOM gone.

On top of that I am off work ill and basically homeless. Top life with my heart crawling around in pieces.

But with all this pain and the daily thought of you and the fact I can’t make you happy anymore.

With the eagles in the sky circling me for their next girl.

I am trying not to get tempted by the shinning new pennies.

I believe in the love I dream and that one day I will find that person to love me from the inside and out.

Wishing I don’t fall for the tricks of my old fake self, or getting with someone just for the fact they want me.

Hoping I stay strong and through the tears of loss, I find my true love.

The love that holds us together through the stars of time.

But until then, I will walk not sit, get not wish and Believe not hope.

Thinking of me, Who I be.
January 29, 2013

Today I spent most of it, Listening to Macklemore & Ryan Lewis their songs speak to me with the words and music. Their songs have made me think about what makes me to this world. This is all I can think of – My loving family making myself caring and have the streak of cheeky comedy. My Music selection, random genres from pop, old school, hip hop, r & b, punk, rock, cheesy love songs, dance music, acoustic. I love many different songs this is thanks to my mother’s taste in music and my sister’s too. My sporting backbone given to me by my brother. Growing up with no father figure with a Mother working three jobs to raise her three children, my brother took me under his wing teaching me sports. During School days I played sport many different kinds which have me a natural high. My writing which came from writing lyrics originally  to then poems and then short stories. Reading other’s thoughts and feeling, the facts of things spoke to my soul and mind. Love from all of these things make me complete, Love from my family blood and adopted, Love for sport playing and supporting, love for the art in the world that effects the senses.

I have wrote some more of my novel, read over three chapters in my 11th book of the year with is about a couple one a NBA star and the other a Dancer, I shall let you know if it ends up to be a good book. I feel I can achieve my goal of 120 books in a year if I keep going at the pace I am at now.  I’m going to write something on here which I wrote today just a random thought maybe it can be classed as a poem.

Strong

I broke through in time

to save the hope within my soul, I can make the difference

All I need is strength

 

to carry on this life with a smile

is harder than crying on the way down

remain tall nothing to do with height

Have pride in your choices, even if their wrong

there is no shame in knowing

your mistakes

As long as you learn from them

 

So smile, Stand tall, make mistakes

as we learn to stay Strong.

 

Thank you for reading.

There is only one rule SMILE.